Run, Forest... run.

No matter how far or fast you run, the same problems you face every day will catch up to you.


I used to be a runner. Sometimes I think I still am. After a rough first year of college, I ran. I don't regret transfering schools. (In fact, I never really regret anything). I love my current college. Within the first week, I wondered why I would ever go anywhere else.

Although I found deep contentment away from my first college year, I realized I had a new emptiness. I missed certain things from freshmen year that I didn't realize I treasured. I missed relationships and the people I left behind.

I tend to detach myself from my feelings and I thought that these sentiments were fleeting. I thought I could forget. I tried to fill up my time, to keep myself busy, and to find another outlet. I made new relationships and found new happiness. Nevertheless, the emptiness could not be filled. And then I found myself running again.

Now I'm in Europe, a continent away from my feelings and discontentment... yet I still feel this way. I didn't run BECAUSE of these feelings, but I found myself with facing them even at this distance. I'm still struggling, trying to figure out what it all means within the grand design of my life. I pray that God will help me unfold the mystery.

Had I not been so jaded by the world, I might find the strength to search my heart, but for now... I guess I'll keep running.

New Year

"Happiness comes in many forms -- in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed. It's okay to let yourself be happy because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be." -- Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill

My new year's resolution: be happy.

Sometimes I find myself standing in my own way because of pride or fear. Freshmen year, I was all about taking chances and rolling with punches. Maybe it's because I had to. Or maybe it's because all those little happy moments were all I really needed.

At the end of the day, no matter what I was dealing with, if I could find something to be happy about before I went to bed, life was good.

Be happy. It's that easy.